i made a mistake. i read thru some messages from 2 years ago and now i regret everything. i didnt even do anything wrong. it wasnt my fucking fault. but i still regret the collapse of that i failed to maintain. i couldnt have done anything better than i did and thats what hurts the most. she was really my only friend and now i dont even know if she is still alive. even now that i have other friends i still miss her. she was definitely something special in a strange kind of way i cant quite describe, and now if she's even still alive ill never be able to speak to her again. Aliyah. if you're still out there somewhere. may we meet again in the stars. i miss you.-someone who once was everything