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OCTOBER 22ND AT 03:12

Hey, couple changes around the site, (thanks Anni, I mean it.) But that's not what this is about. Lately, I feel split, in my last entry, I mentioned now going by Kamelia as sort of a middle name that was supposed to be interchangeable with Jazmine, however, now it feels like i'm two different people. It's like "Kamelia" and "Jazmine" are two different entities, yet the exact same person, it's like they're the same but they both just go by a different name, I guess. This dilemma sprouted originally because, well part of me wants to NOT be referred to as Jazmine anymore, but the other part of me doesnt want this, it wants to keep the Jazmine name, and I love both of the names, yeah, but its been a long time since ive wanted to be called Jazmine exclusively as my only name. These two parts of me, its like they're at war with eachother, but they dont want to destroy anything, they just want to both be me permanently, I guess, if that makes any sense. I don't even know how to feel about this and i'm still kind of mentally reeling about for a solution that I can actually settle on.

-Kamelia.